曾经

曾经。。

没错，就是它。让我把它当作是理所当然，总在想着为何是如此，所以不以为然。也许害怕迟疑是一部分。因为没自信。

正当失去时，才发现它的重要。因为它已在不知不觉中走进我生命里。但已经太迟了，因为到了无法挽回那失去的曾经。。。

原来那些不知道为何是如此的事，是它能保护好我的证明。虽然这是迟来的觉悟，但我也是从中，学了一课很重要的课不是吗？

我们总是不知道曾经的意义。而后悔当时的自己怎么不勇敢些、好好珍惜。如果曾经能够再次出现，我一定会用尽所有的勇气珍惜、付出、来保护那个曾经。。

也许你永远都不会知道，但这一之是我想说的心里话。也就是指你，不是他。

Healthy Living

Recently have been attending fitness classes like zumba and body pump! Interesting classes that I have never attempt/ attended before. 

I like body pump though, even though it's really tiring and our muscles ache from it after the sessions. That's for not working out regularly previously. Haha! 

Other than that, recently we bought a small cooker to cook simple lunch at work:) one reason why I wanted to get it is cuz I am sick of thinking about what to eat during lunch. So excited to try it out next week. Let's see what my first meal using this cooker will be. Maybe let's start with something simple like beehoon soup? Since I am not a person who knows how to cook. Hahahaha! Wish me luck at my first attempt next week!! Hopefully I can update on the outcome of my beehoon soup with this cooker:P

Sleepless Night

Time check: 1.45am and I am still widely awake! Not for any particular reason but I just can't seem to fall asleep. Been tossing and turning and many things had gone through my mind since. 

No wonder people say to not think too much at night. It's true. You will tend to be reminded of the unhappiness at night when the world is sleeping. In the day, usually we won't have much time to think about the unhappiness due to many distractions. But in the night when quietness creeps in, we tend to venture into our darkest side unknowingly. 

Yes, I am reminded of the regrets. But if given the choice again, I will be brave and  choose differently. But if not for the happenings, I would not have learnt and see things differently isn't it? Things happen for a reason. This I strongly believe. But now, I also believe in taking your fate in your own hands - if it's really what you want, you need to fight for it no matter what the outcome. If you fail once, stand strong and continue fighting.. You will succeed one day:) 

Ok I guess that's enough for now. Gonna update this blog more often:p

For now, I shall try hard to sleep. If not I will regret it tmr when lack of sleep couple with Monday blues😂 

From Strangers

Had been busy with volunteering for the Sea Games 2015:) It's the first time I am volunteering at the competition venue as previously for YOG, I am based at the athletes' residing place! I have to say that it's totally a different experience being based at competition venues. But it's all good:) 

Some of the photos taken:

Given a choice again if I want to volunteer for sea games, my answer will be yes! Haha! And I can't wait to see them again in July:) 

Been A While

Been a while since I last blogged. Busy with work and all with the changes of workload and portfolio at work.

I still remember in April the feeling I had when I knew the amount of things that I am going to be taking over - my appointment calendar was mostly taken up for the first few weeks - and it's only for one of the processes. There's still two more! The thoughts of how I am going to manage haunts me. The frightening feeling of uncertainty and all. Can't really put to words how I am feeling during that time. Not only me who is feeling this way. I also knew of some other colleagues who had the same encounter as me. I think this might be what they are feeling as well :X

However, at this juncture, I am glad that I managed to survive through the tough period since April though I am still surviving through. But it's much better now as compared to the start of the change since now I already got the hang of how things should be done - learning through the hard way... This reminds me of the song lyrics: "What doesn't kills you makes you stronger"! True much? 

But even so, I feel that the change is more of for the best rather for the worst. Maybe on the management level, it is still too early to say. But I feel that in terms of working relationships with colleagues, it's for the better. We are all learning together - some process is our expertise while some is others' expertise. But regardless of how busy we already are, we still spare some time to help others with the areas we expertise in, and vice versa. The unselfish way of helping others makes me see another side of everyone:) 

Shall end off this post with the song - Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger~! 

Fear

Totally dislike the feeling of having to wait outside the emergency department in the hospital. The feeling of not knowing and having to see the different different scenes such as people crying and praying outside, or people in great pain while waiting for someone to attend to them. The second one is the one that made me even scared when I am outside there waiting. And that's what I encountered earlier just now. 

We were just sitting around waiting since there's nothing we can do except to wait - wait for an available ward for admission. Then there was this guy in a wheelchair who was in great pain seeing the muffled cry when the pain had kicked in, and the sweat on his face. We saw. And I was also scared - scared of the pain. Can totally feel his pain was terribly intense. 

I really can't deal with all these. Since young. Hopefully everything will be alright!