Conflicting Feelings On Changes

With the soon-to-be changes, and the preparations that will lead to it, to tell the truth, I have conflicting feelings. 

One side of me is feeling rather positive about it and actually looking forward to it. I get to learn more things from the change. It might not be a bad thing to learn something new that might be useful in future. Of course there will be the challenges of having to absorb new information, but it will be alright in the end. Another factor is also that I still get to stay with most people that matters. 

The other side is being worried about the uncertainty. Rather normal feeling since we do not know what really to expect and how things will turn out to be with changes. And partly also missing those in in-svc. Missing all the regular disturbing, joking around and gossiping and everything. Even though will see them around, but maybe things might be different from how it is now? I also have no idea.

But even so, I hope that this change is for the best. Hope that it's more of a good thing rather than the negative side...

So, we shall wait around and see. Since it will be effected in another 2 months more. But of course feeling the stress now because of the OJT, having to do up the slides and conducting of trainings in front of groups of people inclusive of the head. Hopefully all will go well during the sessions. 

 

Rant And Move On

And further to the post earlier, regardless of the problems or setbacks, life still goes on. Things won't stop in its tracks for you. 

After the ranting out and reaching a decision , I am finally feeling more carefree already after a good night sleep:) That's how the way I am. After ranting out and all, I will move on or forget. 

So anyway, updates so far.. I have dyed my hair red this year! Second time dye-ing my hair. Last year was the brown colour, safest colour since it's my first attempt at dye-ing. And this year, I still go back to the colour I most wanted to dye since last year. And that is Red! Of course not those bright red.. I don't think I can accept the sudden change to brighter colour. I dyed a darker shade of red. And even so, I took a while to get used to this colour:P

Happy Thursday everyone! One more day to the weekends~ :)

Just Tired

February.. Chapter 2 of 2015 and here I am feeling draining. Have been feeling very tired recently... Not sure if it's just physically tired or maybe it's because of the mental drain. Maybe I am just tired of being repeatedly being reminded of it and all. Maybe I am just... tired of everything.

And I start to wonder. Maybe it's time to think and heed the advice from a friend previously. I being the stubborn one had chosen not to heed the advice before, or maybe I just did not think likewise of what he saw. Until.... recently. 

It's like finding yourself in the middle of a whirlpool, going around in circles with the rapid moving tides without the ability to have any control over it. And regardless of how you keep trying and flailing your arms to try to swim out of it, you find yourself unable to escape this powerful force. 

This is how it feels like. And I think it's enough. After much thinking, I have made up my mind, and I am done. Done with the pointless struggling and flailing around my way out. Now I guess, all I will need is some time to clear up my mind and thoughts. All this is clouding my thoughts and making me lose my usual way of reasoning. But why is it so hard to withdraw myself? 

Can't wait for March - a getaway and a breather! Hopefully things will be better? Wait for my updates then! :)

2015 A New Beginning

Finally the first post for the new year - 2015! To tell the truth, I am starting to lose the hang of blogging. Running out of available topics to write about, since I still want my own privacy. Or maybe this is just an excuse for just being lazy? Haha! 

Basically, I would conclude that 2014 have been filled with many happy moments even though it had not been totally smooth-sailing such as first visit to Bangkok, my graduation, as well as participating in public running events. We can't expect life to be always smooth-sailing right? There will tend to be the downs in life, those that you learn from the mistakes you had made, and make you cherish those happy moments of life even more. 

So what exactly have I been up to recently? Busy with living my life to the most! Getting older with each passing year (time really pass fast once you hit the age of 21!) and I have decided to make the most out of my life - letting go and take some chances~ 

Can't wait to see how the year will progress even though it is believed that this year will be quite rough being it is my zodiac year. But who cares, I shall just accept the unpredictable road ahead (stop worrying about the uncertainties) and pave out many memories as possible! :) Just spend every day happily. 

Do you know,

"Science have also proven that if you smile or laugh, even if you force yourself to, you will literally feel happier! "

Have a try at this and see if it makes you happier. Not saying that you have to smile like a creep constantly of course. That will be just weird...

So let's gear up and enjoy the ride:) 

坚持

如果，是你，你会有这种坚持的勇气吗？如果那个人是你最想要的，你会坚持到底吗？
也许很多人都不能吧。

但这位女生做到了。她是其中之一的一位吧。

这位女生，她很喜欢一个男生，于是鼓起勇气向男生告白。但是男生却因为害怕所以拒绝了女生。因为害怕失去她这个好朋友。女生很伤心，有一段时间就很抗拒看到和听到关于男生的事情，害怕看到他和别的女生在一起。但是，这位女生的妈妈告诉她，如果喜欢，那么她还在等什么。所以，女生决定再次向男生表白，宁愿被男生拒绝，然后很伤心，也不要他被别的女生带走。。。

她说，”她不知道会这么的喜欢那个男生多久，也许可以一辈子喜欢下去，也许五或十年后她就不喜欢他了，但她不想放弃因为她知道她现在是真的真的很喜欢他"。

所以，如果有些事情是你想要的，不要放弃，继续坚持。会有好的结果的。:)

No matter what

Many a times you just want to get away

To catch a breather

To get to a place

Where everything will be alright

No matter what you do

Nothing's gonna change isn't it

No matter what you do

Things will still be the same isn't it

Many a times it just won't back off

Just won't let you go

Just staying persistent 

And watch you suffocate

What can you do

To get out from this

To get to some nicer place 

Away from this tangling web