Conflicting Feelings On Changes

With the soon-to-be changes, and the preparations that will lead to it, to tell the truth, I have conflicting feelings. 

One side of me is feeling rather positive about it and actually looking forward to it. I get to learn more things from the change. It might not be a bad thing to learn something new that might be useful in future. Of course there will be the challenges of having to absorb new information, but it will be alright in the end. Another factor is also that I still get to stay with most people that matters. 

The other side is being worried about the uncertainty. Rather normal feeling since we do not know what really to expect and how things will turn out to be with changes. And partly also missing those in in-svc. Missing all the regular disturbing, joking around and gossiping and everything. Even though will see them around, but maybe things might be different from how it is now? I also have no idea.

But even so, I hope that this change is for the best. Hope that it's more of a good thing rather than the negative side...

So, we shall wait around and see. Since it will be effected in another 2 months more. But of course feeling the stress now because of the OJT, having to do up the slides and conducting of trainings in front of groups of people inclusive of the head. Hopefully all will go well during the sessions. 

 

Rant And Move On

And further to the post earlier, regardless of the problems or setbacks, life still goes on. Things won't stop in its tracks for you. 

After the ranting out and reaching a decision , I am finally feeling more carefree already after a good night sleep:) That's how the way I am. After ranting out and all, I will move on or forget. 

So anyway, updates so far.. I have dyed my hair red this year! Second time dye-ing my hair. Last year was the brown colour, safest colour since it's my first attempt at dye-ing. And this year, I still go back to the colour I most wanted to dye since last year. And that is Red! Of course not those bright red.. I don't think I can accept the sudden change to brighter colour. I dyed a darker shade of red. And even so, I took a while to get used to this colour:P

Happy Thursday everyone! One more day to the weekends~ :)

Just Tired

February.. Chapter 2 of 2015 and here I am feeling draining. Have been feeling very tired recently... Not sure if it's just physically tired or maybe it's because of the mental drain. Maybe I am just tired of being repeatedly being reminded of it and all. Maybe I am just... tired of everything.

And I start to wonder. Maybe it's time to think and heed the advice from a friend previously. I being the stubborn one had chosen not to heed the advice before, or maybe I just did not think likewise of what he saw. Until.... recently. 

It's like finding yourself in the middle of a whirlpool, going around in circles with the rapid moving tides without the ability to have any control over it. And regardless of how you keep trying and flailing your arms to try to swim out of it, you find yourself unable to escape this powerful force. 

This is how it feels like. And I think it's enough. After much thinking, I have made up my mind, and I am done. Done with the pointless struggling and flailing around my way out. Now I guess, all I will need is some time to clear up my mind and thoughts. All this is clouding my thoughts and making me lose my usual way of reasoning. But why is it so hard to withdraw myself? 

Can't wait for March - a getaway and a breather! Hopefully things will be better? Wait for my updates then! :)