Sleepless Night

Time check: 1.45am and I am still widely awake! Not for any particular reason but I just can't seem to fall asleep. Been tossing and turning and many things had gone through my mind since. 

No wonder people say to not think too much at night. It's true. You will tend to be reminded of the unhappiness at night when the world is sleeping. In the day, usually we won't have much time to think about the unhappiness due to many distractions. But in the night when quietness creeps in, we tend to venture into our darkest side unknowingly. 

Yes, I am reminded of the regrets. But if given the choice again, I will be brave and  choose differently. But if not for the happenings, I would not have learnt and see things differently isn't it? Things happen for a reason. This I strongly believe. But now, I also believe in taking your fate in your own hands - if it's really what you want, you need to fight for it no matter what the outcome. If you fail once, stand strong and continue fighting.. You will succeed one day:) 

Ok I guess that's enough for now. Gonna update this blog more often:p

For now, I shall try hard to sleep. If not I will regret it tmr when lack of sleep couple with Monday blues😂 

From Strangers

Had been busy with volunteering for the Sea Games 2015:) It's the first time I am volunteering at the competition venue as previously for YOG, I am based at the athletes' residing place! I have to say that it's totally a different experience being based at competition venues. But it's all good:) 

Some of the photos taken:

Given a choice again if I want to volunteer for sea games, my answer will be yes! Haha! And I can't wait to see them again in July:) 

Been A While

Been a while since I last blogged. Busy with work and all with the changes of workload and portfolio at work.

I still remember in April the feeling I had when I knew the amount of things that I am going to be taking over - my appointment calendar was mostly taken up for the first few weeks - and it's only for one of the processes. There's still two more! The thoughts of how I am going to manage haunts me. The frightening feeling of uncertainty and all. Can't really put to words how I am feeling during that time. Not only me who is feeling this way. I also knew of some other colleagues who had the same encounter as me. I think this might be what they are feeling as well :X

However, at this juncture, I am glad that I managed to survive through the tough period since April though I am still surviving through. But it's much better now as compared to the start of the change since now I already got the hang of how things should be done - learning through the hard way... This reminds me of the song lyrics: "What doesn't kills you makes you stronger"! True much? 

But even so, I feel that the change is more of for the best rather for the worst. Maybe on the management level, it is still too early to say. But I feel that in terms of working relationships with colleagues, it's for the better. We are all learning together - some process is our expertise while some is others' expertise. But regardless of how busy we already are, we still spare some time to help others with the areas we expertise in, and vice versa. The unselfish way of helping others makes me see another side of everyone:) 

Shall end off this post with the song - Stronger (What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger~! 

Fear

Totally dislike the feeling of having to wait outside the emergency department in the hospital. The feeling of not knowing and having to see the different different scenes such as people crying and praying outside, or people in great pain while waiting for someone to attend to them. The second one is the one that made me even scared when I am outside there waiting. And that's what I encountered earlier just now. 

We were just sitting around waiting since there's nothing we can do except to wait - wait for an available ward for admission. Then there was this guy in a wheelchair who was in great pain seeing the muffled cry when the pain had kicked in, and the sweat on his face. We saw. And I was also scared - scared of the pain. Can totally feel his pain was terribly intense. 

I really can't deal with all these. Since young. Hopefully everything will be alright! 

Things Might Not Be The Way How You See It

I have to say that I am very impressed with the girl! Her staying firm despite being despise by everyone, and all for what she had planned in the end... She is very brave, choosing to attend the program in this way, having to withstand the stress of everyone despising her and also misunderstanding her.

Initially when I start watching this, I was literally rolling my eyes at the way she is acting. It's too much then what I can take. Cannot stand it totally. But towards the end, when she finally disclosed her true self that I am stun. Not just me, I think everyone will be shock. And further more her reasoning of why she did this - just so "only" he can see her true self. 

Quick to judge might be the nature of most of us. We tend to look at things and think towards the direction we think it should be. Sometimes things might look like what you think, what in reality, it might not even be so. That is when misunderstandings exist. 

Take for example a scene in a drama I had watched: Two guys was quarreling inside the room, and in the midst of fighting they landed up on top of each other, and was still fighting. Just then, the door open. They froze. But the person who saw them on top is quick to judge from that scenario, thinking that they are doing something inappropriate. That's how misunderstandings happen. If that person who saw the scene had clarified with the two guys, maybe the person will then know it's all just a misunderstanding. 

So, to end off this post, just wanna to say that things might not be the way how you see it! Don't be too quick to judge based on what you think it should be. 

Random

Time sure flies! Been around a month since my last post. But as time goes by without constant blogging, I am suddenly stuck at what exactly to post, or what to update. Mind block as they say, and that if you write more, the smoother it will be in writing. Not sure if this is the case though :P

But anyway, the main updates since my last post will be:

Chinese New Year

This year is the liveliest of all? Not sure when’s the last time it had been so lively at my Grandma’s house… As all of us resides at various locations (most at various parts of Malaysia), we seldom had the chance to gather together. And even so, it was hard as there are so many families – no space to sleep, and some stayed quite a distance away from my Grandma’s house. We took turns to return, but my family usually return on CNY since there’s a long break. But then this year, most of us gathered. And I saw most of my relatives whom I had not seen for like around 8 years!

If I remembered correctly, the last time we seen each other would be at a relative’s wedding.

Taiwan Trip

First trip ever to Taiwan from 25 Feb – 03 Mar.

Accomplishment unlocked! Places we went to are Taichung and Taipei. Personally, I liked the places I went to in Taichung and it seems like I am happier. It’s like going to these scenic places near to the nature side can really let me let loose and forget problems. Must be the nice weather and fresh air. But too bad I didn’t managed to go to CingJing Farm. I heard it’s not too bad! Maybe I shall go there if there’s a chance in future.

But of course, I am not saying that Taipei is not good. It’s not too bad also!  But just personally I liked those sight-seeing places, seeing a place for the first time. The feeling is just amazing:) 

Let’s see if I got the time to do up the blog post for Taiwan.. If not, then it shall be inside my memories and scrapbook for Taiwan (but it's just halfway done). Heehee.